Hmm.. yup.. i shall advertise here.. that in abt tens days time i will be 21st...
Hmm.. looking forward yet not very excited at the same time... no fancy stuff for mi.. Honestly .. im envy of ppl who has special bday celebrations and awesome 21st or 18th bday celebration.. im usually alone on my bday ... not including those days where my maternal grandpa was still ard where i will usually go over to his hse.. and have a feast n big nice Garfield cake.. i miss those times.. come to tink of it i nv realise until now that all my bday celebrations with family come to a stop since his departure... i miss him... * sigh*
anyway .. back to my bday... so ya.. ppl might tot i hav planned loads of stuff or etc for my bday... or with bf.. ( i admit i used to b often attached..) but.. frankly speaking it was otherwise... hmm.. i guess this yr 21st will b pretty much the same.. i wanted to hav a chalet when someone gave mi the hope of booking it for mi .. bt things din turn out well.. i wanted to hav a bbq.. bt.. i noe is damn exp... i dun wan my mum pay for it... cuz im lik BIG TIME leeching her already with school and stuff.. hai.. for once ..i wished my parents are better off than now... cuz i really wan a special bday for my 21st... ( im nt blaming them honestly..) ... i mean im content with having such a loving and self-less mum.. i really Thank God for her.. bt... nvm .. :)
other than financial ... actually i hav another stronghold.. is _____.. hai... i dunno how to say... is juz very de-moralising to noe tt if i were to have a party ______ will be there..n i juz cant be myself with _____ around.. and i noe i wun b enjoying at all...
so .. i think tt sums up to those who were asking mi why m i having a peaceful 21st?
Since im nt having any celebrations... im nt having high hopes on Bday gift...
So.. i tink a "Happy Birthday" via sms will b enuff for mi .. :)
Please dun fb mi .. i dun lik fb wishing actually! haha!..
A place where I will just be myself.
