and... along the way of trying things... i realize... i start hurting myself.. and others around me.. without even realizing them.. until things gotten ugly... and perhaps.. things hav already been irreversible...
I have to admit something here.. given my character.. i sometimes do things out of impulsiveness... and.. more than often i regretted doing them.. so i wan to say sorry to this particular friend...
because.. i often tot i was "saint" enuff to do the right things.. help out in the right way... and always react to situation in the best possible way... but... somehow im wrong again..
I thought i could help u out .. honestly... but when i take a step back n look at the biggger picture.. realize.. i cant.. if force u to step out of the dreadful situation u are in now... i might land u in a worser state... perhaps... a state of emptiness.. because... i cant promise u or even perhaps give u the things that u tot i can or she is giving... that is when i realise i shld retreat from the situation.. n most importantly ... YOU.. maybe u will b a lot better this way... better than i forcing u out of the situation... i really dun wan u to b any sadder than now.. i sincerely wan you to b happy ...
n.. im sure u noe who i m toking about...
P.S: dun ask mi who the person is ok??? bt if u tink u are the person... I am Sorry...
