Hmm... suddenly realise lik having a few ppl asking mi abt wei lun..
yup the guy who is my last bf..
yup~ most common question was why we broke up?
Hmm.. my reply was lik.. he initiated it... he said was all for his studies...
though ater i heard rumours abt mi pressuring him?
haix.. i seriously dunno why la..
erm if u r a regular reader during may end.. u will noe how i was then la..
actually recent at sending Joy off tt day i saw him again .. so ya was lik suddenly super sad... n lik gt heart ache feeling n tt stupid shawn still keep rubbing into it...-.-!!!
ok la.. shawn doesnt mean it one i noe..
bt still a part of mi cant forgive or forget him? or isit cuz thewound has yet recovered?
i dunno ..
i was lik wondering abt it juz now on my way home...
cuz shawn was saying i v dumb la.. why i commit so easily..so ya..
actually he reminded how dumb i was then..
i am nt being offensive here.. nt pin-pointing ppl here or wat..
bt is the fact tt u cant let any1 hurt u w/o ur consent ma..
so is lik.. i open my heart.. haix...
though i keep telling ppl i forgive him n is ok le..
juz now i suddenly feel tt ( on my way home) hav i really forgive him?
i mean not only did he initated the broke up bt oso the way he treat mi aft the break up .. seriously i felt kind of insulted.. and super hurt...
cuz he gave mi the feeling of a total stranger.. made mi felt tt our r/s was all a facade but...
lik wat Pastor said.. if i were to forgive him completely i would firstly forgive him n may God bless n love him.. bt i dun tink i did the 1st step at all.. haix...
Cuz i noe deep dwn i dun accept the reason he gave .. for studies? cuz i feel tt there's moRe to it ..
seriously.. if u still do visit my blog..
plz at least tell mi the fact ..
i dun wish to remember u in such a negative manner...
