Departure.

Hmm...
There is sth which i tink there are ppl who wanna ask mi .. but dun dare or dun bother to ask...
i wun mention anything here... as in nt to name the incident explicitly...

cause i seriously felt redundant... useless... and helpless at tt point of time...
i feel tt H was insincere... i dunno why... i'll never forget H saying nv intended to b my fren.. if nt for... i tink so too.. H seriously dun even bother abt mi.. i felt lik a tool... nothing more bt an acquaintance ...perhaps was my immaturity... or perhap is i asked too much for it... I was so sincere.. im honest ... i really put my heart n soul... but... i cant help bt feeling tt H doesnt really bothers.. i was really dependent on H... Obedient can oso b another word b used... i had to confess some times i feel tt H doesnt even really noe or understand mi... or is it tt armour barrier tt i had built around myself wasnt really removed when i faced H?

another was i cant stand Y... n S... i dunno why... i noe im guilty for doing so.. bt i cant help it? perhaps im nt strong enuff i guess... J told mi alot .. but i jus cant move on.. why? i cant stand myself this way too... *sigh*

recently i learnt abt sth... i was quite shock abt it... i mean i always look up to I! frankly speaking I din really did anything wrong... but why cant i take it? haix... i dunno la... perhaps is juz mi being kpo? .. who am i to question I?

I miss H.. i Miss L... i Miss HL. i Miss X... I miss I... i miss the SF honestly... I miss G BIG TIME!

I came across H blog recently.. in fact just... H says no one really cares... bt i hope to Tell H tt i do... is H u know im referring to you.. n u nid sum1 to tok to or sth can find mi... bt i doubt u will ever know... cuz u dun even bother abt mi... =x

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ok a very algebraic entry... bt has been sth i hav been to find someone to tell but cant find one to really tell everything .. bt i tink G knows all... and i felt better by typing it out tis way...